disappointing and inspired

how can people party everynight..

just one night after a long time... of not doing so and i hated it..

only thing good to doo was get ganja..

while everyone else is acting a fool getting drunk dancing.. like they have no respect.. all i wanted to do is have a conversation... relax be away from these people..
no doubt i had some what of fun saw a friend hung out with my cuzin and her ex boyfriend and some of his boys all around good guys.. going out at night is no longer my thing i noticed no matter what its on the crowd you are with no matter what i wont be comfortable going out unless its with my boy's.. or that special some one..
at the end of night you just find it a utter waste of time... wished you coulda spent it doing something else... but no matter how you do.. it wont happen.. every reaction has a reaction basic rule of karma.. and im getting mine..

is the concept of "action" or "deed" in Indian religions understood as that which causes the entire cycle of cause and effect (i.e., the cycle called saṃsāra) originating in ancient India and treated in Hindu, Jain, Sikh and Buddhist philosophies.[2].

In these systems, the effects of all deeds are viewed as actively shaping past, present, and future experiences. The results or 'fruits' of actions are called karma-phala

to tell you the truth doesen't feel to well. at the end f night just empty ness..

ended like every night just me and my music...

im very disappointed and have learned.. from this,.. just a waste..
seeing how today's young culture my culture is... weezy bumpen pill poppin... no respect having... love troubled youths ongoing the demise everyday with each thing they do.. we are slowly.... going into this black hole... all of us who don't do the right thing...

do to one of my actions and burdens i have on me.. i totally forgot about work everyday life and just got engulfed in something i don't wish to be engulfed..
for that i got a week suspension from work.. every action has a reaction people choose wisely... im choosing to start a newer leaf the other leaf i have turned.. if that makes any sense to you guys.. and today i wake... up... hoping for something for wich i didn't get..
today i woke. up ALONE..... in all ways possible today i feel alone.....
is this the way love is supposed to feel i think not..
" The soul that sees beauty may sometimes walk alone"

" Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions; reality can be attained only by someone who is detached"

is the best for me to be detached..

"Love works a different way in different minds, the fool it enlightens and the wise it blinds."

i have been blind all this time.. should i awaken...
& get things done...
or should i remain..a fool and be enlightened by his ways..

only god knows...